I Chose Me!

Never compromise yourself at the expense of others. Including family, after completing my Master's program. I wanted to see what God has for me during this season. I found that the legal community I wanted to be so much a part of did not provide the support or hands on guidance I needed. After my daughter moved in with my grandchildren. I love them with all my heart, but I didn't expect the responsibility of raising them would be pushed on me. 

I've been rescue 911 for them, but feel like the challenges I faced this past year came when I took my eyes off of my purpose and passions. I stopped writing, and stopped dreaming that the plans that God had for me would be a reality. 

The dreams of becoming an attorney became so far removed from my present reality. I just caved, I started to allow resentment and fear set in. Until I cried, I prayed and made up iny mind. That this life is not my portion. The lies of the devil is not my reality. I exhaled after being exhausted from being everything for those iny life, but not taking care of me. 

I chose me, I prayed and seen the revelation of God's word come to life.  It's a day by day process, but can be done. Don't forget who you are or give up on the person God called you to be. 

 Walk away from anything that tries to bring you down. Set time for yourself unapologetically, and choose you. Your peace of mind, space and boundaries matter. You have a right to say no, and take some necessary quiet time to re-group, rebuild and focus. If they are not lifting you up then let them go.

 Hello Family, 

It's been a while, and I pray that you all have been blessed beyond measure. To my beautiful melanin sisters of God. Check in time, how are you? no really, how are you? what silent cries did you have to smile while suffering in silence. As for me, this past year has been mentally trying for me. Spiritually, I was all over the place in my thinking, although I function with a sound mind. 

The family has moved back with me and it feels like I'm raising kids all over again, it's a lot. I know my daughter means well, but the pressure during this time is trying. I'm prepping for law school, looking for work, and trying to maintain my sanity by staying close to God. I'm listening to one of the teachings from Pastor Chris, Titled! "Life is Spiritual". I was hit by a motorist who T-boned me, and it has given me time to reflect where I'm at in my life, What have I accomplished to leave a legacy for my daughters and grandchildren to follow? The fear that I've had these past few months, that I've prevailed in prayer to confirm with God that fear is  not my portion, he didn't give us a spirit of fear, but of POWER, LOVE & OF A SOUND MIND.....

In closing, I will leave you with a short note: CHOOSE YOU! PROTECT YOUR SPIRIT, AND DON'T ALLOW STRONGHOLDS IN YOUR MIND TO KEEP YOU CAPTIVE. 

SPIRITUAL GROWTH IS NECESSARY..... 

Exhale!

Father God, I give honor and thanks to you today for all that you have done in my life, and the lives of my three daughters and grandchildren. I truly am in awe at the way you have protected me against my foes and enemies. All that was lost and taken from me, have been restored. Those that passed me by, or chose to judge me, based on the part of my life they were in. I've seen you close doors and erase them out of my life.

I am thankful for the alone season in my life. Day by day, I am becoming a better authentic version of myself. I'm finding that with time and the blessing of the gifts and talents that you have blessed me with. I continue to grow in my professional career. To that end, as I sit here and write this post. I pray that this inspires others to reach their fullest potentional.

Thank you, Holy Spirit during this alone season for showing me the character of others towards me. The compassion and kindness that I have shown to other was not returned and for that I'm thankful, because it showed me more humility. I started this journey with my Anthology of Poetry, Titled "Starting Over". What does that look like for me now? how do I began to regain all that was taken or set aside after the trauma I faced in my life? Well! Friends, you have to stay tuned for my next post and segment of how this black woman decided to rewrite the script, following God's lead. Till then, stay blessed, live your life loved and keep pushing....

Self Care-Putting "You" First!

 Hello! Happy Friday! 

    Hey friends bloggets, "sometimes the right thing takes time" quote courtesy of Brown Girl Self Care podcast. Women we as women of color need to take the time out of our daily "To Do" list and focus in on us/yourself. To that end, as I sit here today and look back on the turn of events that 2021 has bought me. I'm remeded of humility, being thankful and present in whatever season of your life your in. Whether it's trying to maintan fitness, or health. Unplug from the easy acess people have to you, including family. 

As Black women, we do not have the support like our grandparents generation did. The men of this generation do not share the same sentiment of protecting our honor. The media is portraying women of color as easy, angry or poor. After listening to "Brown Girl Self Care' podcast. It has helped me focus internally more on myself, where I'm at as a mother, sister, friend and entrepenuer/business owner. Bre, shares in her podcast how we allow people including family easy access to our lives. We have to put ourselves first, and take the time to get off the grid and read the book that you purchased years ago, and invest in your time because it's valuable. 

The importance of putting yourself first determines how well your mental state will be in the long run, take it from me, my middle daughter reasonally came back in my life and with that came a lot of stress and challenges. A while ago in the past during my 20's as a single parent. I made one of the worse decision a woman could make. The relationship I entered after 10 years of leaving an abusive marriage, ended up being very abusive relationship mentally and physically that exposed my daughters to a unhealthy enviornment. Therefore, afraid with no support system, accept my father who was aging himself. I had to turn this around and not allow the dysfunction and toxic patterns to follow my legacy. 

 Although it's been over 50 years ago, there is still residue in their lives exspecially her life. As black women either we are so use to the trauma we tend to suffer in silence and move on with our lives as if nothing happend. And never really heal, the self care and putting you first is about addressing issues or those secrects that most family have, but never admit. Which causes a whirlwind of emotional instability that stems from our childhood and grow into our future relationships.  To that end, after receiving extensive counseling and therapy.  21 years later, things have come full circle , and old wounds have resurfaced.

Upon relocating back to the mainland after much needed solitude from the lost of my father's life. The lord was preparing my spirit with what was to come.  The teachings "Spiritual Warfare" - Understanding Demonic Activity, & The four part series "Anticipating Evil".  As a woman of color, I've decided to not allow anyone to have access in the club of my life whenvever they want. I've chosen to CHOOSE ME instead of the garbage others try to dump in my spirit because they refuse to do the work in their own personal growth. I've healed, and I have forgiving myself, and God has forgiving me. Although this discussion is short for the sake of time, however, I put the work into my life as well as my daughters to heal, and right the wrongs in our life to stop the dysfunction that has been in my family since I was a child. The things my sister's and I were exposed to our innocents that was taken is not something that should ever happen. Women, I will leave you with this, don't allow the decisions of your past, shame you, or make you feel that your voice, gifts and talents that God has given you, are not relevant. There is not one person that has not made a decision either while young or old.  Good or Bad, hidden or that will come to light That is not worth God's love.  The healing can only begin when the truth is in you. 

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This company does not care about its employees, they have a high turnover rate, and are very unprofessional. I am posting this because this needs to be said. Anthony the new district manager lacks the emotional intelligence to properly manage his subordinates. Instead of offering training and professional development to keep good employees. The solution was to undermined someone during this COVID-19 epidemic, a single mom and There is definitely a gender equality issue here when it comes to the hiring & promotion aspect. He lacks leadership skills. A good leader, leads, not talk down to his employees or falsely accuse them of something where there are no concrete evidence to back it up. I would not normally put a public post like this about anyone let alone company unless I feel someone’s civil rights are being violated. Especially women from diverse backgrounds. 

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