Thank you so much for rejecting me....thank you for ignoring my text and calls....thank you for not showing me the compassion and love that I've shown you... The tears that I've cried....over you and for you...you will never understand...
As a single parent....there is no re-do or cushion...after you have given all you've had to provide a stable future for your children.... the hurt that you fill from your children who don't call to check in on you or call to just say hello...or I love you...
I remember as a young woman I was so angry at my mom because I thought she didn't love me and as much as I needed the companionship that I've given my daughters... I just wanted to have that female bond...but as I grew older...I realized that she was only given what she was given...and didn't blame her..from the past hurts that consumed her in fear...and crippled...what dreams she had to soar...a marriage...where....I promise to love you until the end of our life...turned out to be a lie...
I remember standing with my siblings peaking through the crack of the door as my father tried to console her...after he cheated for what seemed to be the last time...my mother could take...she was broken...hurt...and all I remember was wanting to cry with her... and hold...her...
I know how my mother felt and feels when she doesn't get calls from her grandchildren...
What happened to us? why is it so hard for this generation to see that working together is better than working apart.... this is one post that I cannot finish at this time...because I'm so hurt...I feel abandoned...alone...a castaway... REJECTED....
As a single parent....there is no re-do or cushion...after you have given all you've had to provide a stable future for your children.... the hurt that you fill from your children who don't call to check in on you or call to just say hello...or I love you...
I remember as a young woman I was so angry at my mom because I thought she didn't love me and as much as I needed the companionship that I've given my daughters... I just wanted to have that female bond...but as I grew older...I realized that she was only given what she was given...and didn't blame her..from the past hurts that consumed her in fear...and crippled...what dreams she had to soar...a marriage...where....I promise to love you until the end of our life...turned out to be a lie...
I remember standing with my siblings peaking through the crack of the door as my father tried to console her...after he cheated for what seemed to be the last time...my mother could take...she was broken...hurt...and all I remember was wanting to cry with her... and hold...her...
I know how my mother felt and feels when she doesn't get calls from her grandchildren...
What happened to us? why is it so hard for this generation to see that working together is better than working apart.... this is one post that I cannot finish at this time...because I'm so hurt...I feel abandoned...alone...a castaway... REJECTED....
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